Personal problems?

I have thought of the impossible scenarios in my head

and dreamt of how I would plan to react.

so, imagine if the unthinkable suddenly manifest

one morning.

The heart beats too loud, too fast, it's blasting, 

running in circles while breath were shortening

in disbelief, these hands were shaking, 

leaving me in blank

 of what I should do next.

I might blurted something stupid, but that is honesty 

and if that made you giggle, then I am happy 

to take you further to know this side of me

as I've decided not to loose you eventually 

yes, it is troubling and overflowing

yet, I wouldn't call it 'problems' as it is a blessing 

if it is scarcely 

where did I find the strength and ability  

to safeguard this sweetness, in all this intricacy 

buoying that warmth wrapped in the softest silk 

enclosed in my heart

protecting it with all I've got  

protecting it, even from me.